Still hopeful

We have come a long way since last year. Jitish was still bound to the wheelchair, barely walking or talking this time last year. Today, he can walk on his own (but is still at a 99% fall risk). Today, he can talk his mind (despite his repeated fixation on the same topics and evident lack…

It Just Blows!

This chapter of life just blows! To holy kingdom and back. Just blows! This is purgatory. There is no two ways about this. It must be. With no idea where we are heading. Will this train-wreck continue? Are we going straight to hell or is a divine hand going to pull us back to life?…

When the going gets tougher and tougher and …

One by one, Jitish’s provisional aides bid their congratulatory goodbyes. Almost a year after the Trach and Peg tube were removed, it was time for the IVC filter to bid adieu. The removal of the Trach and Peg tubes were a long drawn, painful process. But at the time, Jitish was barely aware of his own state or surroundings….

(Happy) Mother’s Day.

Mother’s day. My mum is with me; Amma (ummmaa). And my dad too; Atchan (utchunn).  It is usually all fun and play, to have your parents visit you. Jitish and I had planned. Eagerly. To have our parents visit us in the US in 2016. To take them to places we have seen. Camp at the…

Anniversary, After, All.

10th of May, 2015. Our First wedding anniversary. We were going to move into our first apartment together. A home we both would make our own. We had packed up half of our belongings the weekend before. Ready to move on the 7th of May. New lease signed. Uhaul truck booked. Amazon order for patio…

Frozen in Time.

when everyone around you seems to move on and you see life go by.

What happens after? Understanding Brain Functionality

I have had a very rude awakening to TBI. I knew little to nothing of traumatic brain injury prior to the accident. Oblivious and ignorant. Until I was told that my husband suffered a Severe Traumatic Brain Injury. I didn’t quite understand the gravity of the aftermath and its long term consequences, until the Doctors and Nurses slowly…

Prepare for the worst, Hope for the best!

We met on this day, Eight years ago. Looking back, I guess we were meant to meet. He was meant to miss his bus, I was meant to have no plans on New Years. And we ended up accompanying our best friend’s to a 2008 New Year’s Eve party. He with his best bud, Harish;…

Not yet home.

Life as you had known it is gone. It has changed, leaving no control in your hands. You choose to ride the storm, or perish.

First day, away.

This is hard. Being away from him. It has been five months, on the 3rd of October. I drove on Sunday night to get back to the apartment. It was time I got back to something normal in the hope of getting our life squared once again. It has been five months, and I had…

Drawing his first breath

 “Freedom is strangely ephemeral. It is something like breathing; one only becomes acutely aware of its importance when one is choking.” William E. Simon   After the accident, at the hospital, everything was too unreal. Every spike in cranial pressure or irregularity in blood pressure had to be solved immediately. Doctors would rush in. They…